Where the hell is this so called God. Its all lies. im just going to kill myself?

God isnt real! I been trying really hard to get a job and I still don't have no job. Nor do I have family or friends. I hate this life so much and all people say is to Pray pray pray and keep praying. And for what? Pray to something that ain't real. How dumb is that. The white blue eyed demon made that God **** up for the hell of it. I'm sick of living and would rather just sleep forever. I don't care anymore. The only God is the damn government.